Choices

Well... Lets start this off by saying:

Life is extremely hard!

Nothing prepares you for life.

Sitting here right now I feel lost, confused, worried, overwhelmed, and every emotion in the book!

But these are the most important moments in life, feeling this is okay!

Life is hard for a reason. 

We as individuals are supposed to make mistakes. If we don't make mistakes we will have nothing to grow from or develop from. 

Growing up is scary because most of us feel we should follow the way of our parents or guardians. College is the perfect way to truly figure out who you are! Choosing the classes ,what you spend your money on, or going to church .... It is all YOUR choice. 

These are all choices I have had to face... I have grown so much in these two weeks on my own. I have had to make some decisions I never had to think about.. 

I now go to church because I enjoy and love going. Before being alone sometimes I questioned whether I enjoyed church or if it was just something I got used to doing on sundays. When I walk into church now I fully understand why I choose to go. The blessings that come to me are so incredible, I can now see church is something I will forever appreciate and I will one day full heartedly bring children into this gospel. I couldn't be happier. 

Honestly, it took me awhile to get to this place in my life. I can't tell you I have everything figured out  and I also have a LONG way to go, but I can tell you I now have the perfect foundation to start my life over and live the way I wish I grew up in. 

This is the time I need to grow up and live my life. I can't worry anymore about anyones negative opinions or advice. The individuals who don't understand will NEVER understand. They had the choice to live a healthy life but chose not to. I just want to tell all of you that no matter what you choose in life, follow your heart. Don't ever let anyones opinions change the way you live your life because in the end they won't be there, it will just be you and the choices you made. 

It's time for me to move forward. 

No one can break me anymore, I have fully protected myself. 

The choices I now make will be how I choose to develop myself. 

But every individual needs to start off somewhere.

I will just start off choosing...

To be happy. 

xoxo

Alexis